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What am I Thankful for

Posted on by The 40 year old magpie

What am I thankful for?

I am thankful for all who turned their backs and kicked me to the curb, you know who you are. I am thankful that my “Landsmen” did the same – I am thankful to not be part of such a community that turns its back upon those who are homeless, indigent and needful. I am than thankful for all the handwringing by the majority over the prospect of having to give equal time for other beliefs, by claiming it was an attempt to shut their worship down.

Thank you all for giving me Power.

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BREAKING: I AM NOT A MENTAL MESS!

Posted on by The 40 year old magpie

Yesterday, I spent 14 hours on the set of an Indie comedy titled HAPPY THANKSGIVING I am playing the lead character’s Mother. I had five scenes involving mltiple takes, and I am happy to report, that I AM NOT EXPERIENCING MENTAL NUMBNESS/FATIGUE today. For me, as a mTBI thriver, this is an awesome development. See, up until yesterday, the energy expended in keeping myself focused was such, that I would have to lie down, or be totally non-functional the following day. This mental fatigue eats into your desire to do. anything. When I awoke this morning completely energized, I was thrilled. So very thrilled. This wall has crumbled. It will not be rebuilt.

 

HAPPY THANKSGIVING will be making the festival circuit in 2012.

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The Sheltered Existence, Pt 11, Crossing the Abyss

Posted on by The 40 year old magpie

So, I let all my facebook friends/enemies/frenemies know what my living situation is. No one has defriended me over it. Hell, I even posted it here. So why am I still outing myself? Because I can. I am the 99%. I work, I am disabled, though exceedingly high functioning, and I currently done earn enough to afford anything, anywhere in the USA. I know, that with the assistance I am being given by both City, State and Federal, that I will rise, like a phoenix out of this mire and be self-sufficient.

Being hospitalized for “suicidal ideation” has led to a certain amount of self-censoring. Just erased a paragraph, because you, the reader, may take it in ways than it’s intent. It sucks.  Just let me say, that I am over this particular “adventure” and I want my own place.

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How to Get Started

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I’m still trying to figure that out, 12 years after my “mild” TBI. I can only get so far, then. I don’t know what to do. It’s like a big ugly wall is thrown up and there is no passage, no gate or door to open and go through. And so I am where I am.

Can I demolish that wall?

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Context Is Everything

Posted on by The 40 year old magpie

While walking back to the shelter, I began musing on the Nature of the Construct we call “Time”.

Animals only have the concept of sleep/not-sleep. No seconds/minutes/hours/days…

Humans, only have a Construct of “Time” because we invented it. When I was recovering from the mTBI, I had no concept of time. Of day/week. Except when I was seeing doctors. every other day. I knew it was “Monday” because I saw a doctor.

Humans have no context without Time.

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Sheltered Existence: Part 6 – WHAT? There’s a suspension for that?

Posted on by The 40 year old magpie

When you enter the shelter, you’re given a “contract” that spells out  one’s responsibilities while there. Basic rules of civilized behavior, such as no smoking in the building, no repeated verbal abuse/violence nom booze/drugs/weapons. One is can get suspended for violating the rules, and I have yet to see it happen. The woman who threatened me, comes. goes. The rules are not enforced, and the residents know nothing will happen.

Sure you’ll get arrested for calling in one too many false alarms, but hey…..

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Why the Anti-Science Creationist Movement Is So Dangerous | Belief | AlterNet

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Why the Anti-Science Creationist Movement Is So Dangerous | Belief | AlterNet.

Oh, AlterNet, it is so much more than that. The fact they desire to retreat to pre-Copernican world view means, they can not resolve themselves to being a small part of Creation, however it began. This is the “tell” if you will:

But as laughable as the creationists’ beliefs are, the creationist movement is no joke. They want to wipe out all the findings of hundreds of years of scientific investigation, erase everything we’ve learned about the vast and majestic history of the universe, and replace it with a cartoon version that grotesquely magnifies our own importance, treating human beings as the crowning glory of creation and diminishing the immensity of the universe to a tiny stage crafted only so that the Bible’s small stories could play out on it.

They are very dangerous children who see the Universe as revolving around them.

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Resistance is Futile (ego remix)

Posted on by The 40 year old magpie

I have long resisted writing about myself in the belief no one is really interested. This has led to your loss. I’ve had many adventures here in the City, one of which keeps getting remade and I’m quite frankly ready for a new and different one.

If you were writing a spec script for me sight unseen, what adventure would you write for me

I’ve already been homeless, so, that’s out

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Why I don’t ask for help

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when I do, it is never forthcoming. It resists my advances like a jaded lover. Kicks me to the curb like a dog and then, shits on me

I finally swallowed my pride and asked for help from my friends in averting eviction. It’s now past the time my rent is due, and well, I know if I were to take ill, and incur massive medical bills or need surgery, well, they would let me die. except for ONE person, a deafening silence, and a cold shoulder. Yet, I’m there for them and their needs.

That ends, now.